So i must admit that I’m still in love with sam I still want to be with her BUT then i really like mariah :/ So I’m stuck ! I’m not going to give in to sam nor am I going to allow myself to catch more feelings for mariah I can’t do it to myself not anymore. Sam knows she has me under her thumb and mariah she knows I really like her so either way I’m screwed so ima just need sometime to myself to figure somethings out because these up and down feelings aren’t working and i can’t do it anymore. I HATE when mariah txt in my ear its annoying and i HATE when sam replies hella slow. BLAH ! BLAH ! BLAH! BLAH ! I’M SO FUCKING DONE WITH THIS !