April 2012
20 posts
Dear diary,
12:14am
April 30
Why am I crying again ? I swore I wouldn’t shed anymore tears over her. She doesn’t get it she doesn’t understand but whatever Idc I’m so tired of this I keep getting sucked in ……….. I swear to god I will NEVER fall in love again most horrible feeling in the world
Dear diary,
11:23pm
April 29
I’m so lost and I’m confused like idk I think I like Drea but I think I’m just fooling around with her because I can’t have Sam smh but I know Drea doing the samething so I’m ok with fooling around with her ……, GOD WHY DID YOU LET HER IN MY LIFE IF I CAN’T HAVE HER ? Like I want her all to myself I want to be able to say...
Dear diary,
2:08pm
April 28
Wtf ?! Lol is this a joke ? Why is she playing with me feelings ? Like is the sound of my heart breaking a melody ? I’m not playing this game with her anymore I’m tired……… Like ugh ! I’m not doing it anymore I’m tired of getting my hopes up I’m tired of thinking about her every second of everyday I’m...
Dear diary,
10:30am
April 28th
Good morning 😊 so I feel better this morning. The girl Drea the one I kissed yeah she my boo thang we messed around before and this time I’m really gonna try to get to know her. I’m goin to stay the night over her house today 😏 you know what that means lol I mean why not I really like her and we knew each other since I started working at Walmart but we were just...
Dear Sam,
Are you reading this ? Lol probably not which is good because I can say everything that’s on my chest *deep breathe*
Man if this isn’t the hardest thing I have ever done idk what was. Did you know I wake up thinking about you ? Probably not
Did you know I miss you smile ? Probably not
Did you know I miss the way you called me babe/baby/bae ? Probably not
Did...
Dear diary,
Everything is a blur I swear but I haven’t been this happy in a while. I’m glad we broke up and I’m free to do me because I don’t have to deal with knowing if I’m with her or not.
Oh yeah I got a crush on someone with beautiful eyes 😳😊😍😘
April 25,2012
Dear diary,
It’s April 24th the day It really ended. I’m ok but I miss her a lot. But I gotta get over her because if I don’t move on ima be stuck on just loving her. So I’m done, time to find someone new or just find myself. But in the mean time ima just play around with Drea. If I don’t get my hair done I’ll go to her house smoke and whatever happens happens *kanye...
Dear diary, 😭😊😊😊😍😍😍😍
“Did you know that I love you with all my heart? And the day I dread is the day we part? The day when we don’t talk & don’t cross each others minds…i pray that day won’t come any time. Did you know that every night in my dreams, you’re there? And before i go to sleep, I pray that you’re here? And when I wake up I look at my phone, send you a...
Dear diary I'm screaming in my skin........
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!! 😠😡😢😭👿 I hate petty inconsiderate people !!!!! Fucking fat slutty bitch ! Ugh !!!!!! Calm down
10:37pm
was on the Phone with sam and it was one of the best convos in a while …………. taking things day by day we not always gonna have perfect days but we just take them how they are ………………P.S still not my gf, we just friends at the moment
BLAH !
I miss you ! Like everyday wanna be with you but your away. Diary I miss her but if I don’t text her I should be fine right ? Idk it’s whatever though…………….i guess. My cramps are killing me and my aunts working my nerves. I want ice cream or something sweet. I want her back but then I don’t………………...
staubyyy:
It Will Rain - Bruno Mars
Wow
So I went on my tagged and looked for those messages and I found it …… Damn it’s been 7 months we started messaging roughly around the end of August and the beinging of September but I got the number on September 27th at 8:09 pm is when I asked for her number that’s when it started and April 8th between 12 and 2 is when it ended we lasted 3 months wish it could have...
Dear God,
Do you here me praying? Do you here my cries? I just want everything to get better. I don’t wanna back track I just wanna move forward. With me and Sam I want us to be better than before so please help us to figure out what to do. For my mom please help her find herself please help her realize she doesn’t need a good for nothing man to be there to bring her down. Help her realize her...
tracyloveee:
Heart Attack - Trey Songz
I remember when it used to be this way and this... →
Sam :”Thank you, for letting me in, for trusting me enough to let your guard down. It may be cliche but I really can’t describe they way you make me feel. You text me something or say something to me and this feeling goes through my body, I feel it in my stomach, idk how to explain it. And I’m so fascinated by you as a person, you’re beauty, you’re gestures, the way you say my name, the...
Man there was a time........
There was a time when YOU were my heart.
There was a time when i thought we would never fall apart
There was a time when I thought YOU would love me forever
Man there was a time
Do YOU believe in true love?
Am I even on YOUR mind? at this very moment? at this very second?
Do YOU still wanna make me scream YOUR name?
Is there anymore room for me in YOUR heart?
Man there was a time
Poetry...
